Friday, April 30, 2010
Last blogged @ 4:45 PM

I'll try.

Currently sitting at the void deck of Baby's house, waiting for her to bathe and come down.

I know I've never been a good girlf. I know I failed in everything I tried to do, and I always can't get myself to be better than before.
I know how much it sucks to have sucha girlf, and wondering "why can't my girlfriend be like this?" when you see how perfect your friend's girlfriend is.
I don't deny I have a bad temper with a serious attitude problem. I don't deny how irritating I can be to ruin your perfect day.
Everybody has their good and bad points and I don't deny that my bad points are much more than my good ones.

I don't know how to care for you the way you want me to, I don't know how to show love to you the way you want me to. And I always do the opposite of what you're expecting.

I'm always late on our dates, dragging my own sweet time when you want to see me as soon as possible, sleep till I neglected your texts and calls, getting aggitated when I shouldn't have, not being there at times when you need me, irresponsible, so on and so forth.

Deep inside, I love you with all my heart.
Action speaks louder than words but I'm always doing the wrong thing at the wrong time.
I always wanted to change my own attitude and temper. But it's easier said than being done. I tried and each time, it will all eventually comes back. I failed time and again.

Deep inside, I love you with all my heart. It feels good when I see you being happy to be with me, being happy when I make you little surprises, etc. As simple as it is, I love your smile. Because it shows me how much joy and happiness I've managed to give you. But still, I never fail to upset you too.

I may not be the best girlf on earth, neither even a good girlf.
All I want to try is to make this love last, cause I will never want it to end. This love of ours is so special. Though we have many bad days, sad moments and bad memories, it is all these ups and downs that made us stay strong.

I'll never give you up, I know you'll never give me up too. We know how much we don't wanna part with each other, though we always throw each other nasty comments when we're upset.

You and I, we made each other our pillar of strength. I love you for who you are, and you love me the same way too.
I know we can make it, through it all.