Tuesday, December 8, 2009
Last blogged @ 12:41 AM

hospital phobia.

today, I went to NUH for my check up before my operation tmr morning.
fuck. i really am scared of needles already.
cried my fucking heart out when they took 3 tubes of blood from me.
CBSXZZZZZZZZZZ SIAAAAAAAAAAAAA!
i was so fucking scared, felt so alone.
though my mum was there, but it just felt like,
I was on my own, all alone. to face the fear.

Fucked up mood, fucked up situation, i so dont wna be in the hospital.
yaya, 9 fucking days only. easier said to be done.
nobody knows the fear I am having in my heart.
I'm so scared, I wna cry my lungs out, but nobody is here.
I'm so scared, I need some strength, but nobody is here.
It's just now me, and my fucking self. I so dont like this.

Because, I dont have, anybody, anymore. Fuck.

Saturday, December 5, 2009
Last blogged @ 11:06 PM

Happy 1 Year Anniversary, My Dearest Boyf.. :)

today is me and Baby's 1 year anniversary.
Time passes by so fast, looking back at a year ago,
when things were so complicated, and people around us were making things tough for us,
we still managed to walk through all the obstacles, and get together,
never letting their evil plans to succeed again.

Many things happened through this 1 year, many indeed.
There were still people who tries to break us apart.
Dont know the reason why though, maybe they hate to see us happy,
because deep down, they feel lonely, so they dont want people around their side to be much more happier than them.
And so, they try to break us apart by whatever ways they could,
in order to be the "happier person" when standing beside us.
Because Baby's my happiness, and I'm sure I'm Baby's happiness too! :)

So many things happened, though we do fall for those devil's trap at some point of time,
but at the end of the day, it's our strong love which pulled us through every single thing.
Our love is stronger than we thought it was.
No matter what, we walked through everything together and still holding our hands tight.


Baby brought me to Miramar Hotel's Ikoi Japanese Restaurant to eat 'cause it's one of my favorite food :)
Then headed down to Cathay to catch Zombieland.
Went shopping too, and home to watch TV together.
And now, my sweet boyf has fallen asleep while I tickled her feet. She likes that, I dno why either. LOLS :)
Baby's bringing me to catch another movie tomorrow again,
and not sure where else yet. And I'll be going back home tomorrow.
Because I have to go for my check up early in the morning on mon, before my operation on tue.
Might be admitting straight tomorrow.
Baby will be spending the days working hard to earn more money,
but I know she'll never forget to visit me :)