Friday, September 25, 2009
Last blogged @ 3:08 PM

life, you're making fun of me.

i was a very happy lil girl when i was younger.
daddy and mummy, filled with love.
i was their perfect lil princess,
until our family tore apart.

i wished i'll grow up fast,
and will not have to face this problem again.
but i was wrong,
i wished i never had grown up after i did,
i have to face even more things.

i started to hate myself,
hate myself, and every single one around me.
love? it was a total joke for me.
because to me, love was the greatest lie.
nobody, nobody made me love myself,
and regain my confidence in myself and life.
nobody.
i found life meaningless.

until i met you.

i want, i want.
to start a new life.
a perfect life i've been seeking for.
someone to love, and someone who love.
someone who make me believe that love,
isnt the greatest lie.
and believe that happiness exist.
and it's going to happen to me.
someone who make me love myself,
and regain all the confidence i ought to have.
from this moment, till forever.

but life has to be unfair to me,
people keep trying their luck to break my happiness.
many many wicked people.
once again, i feel pathetic and forlorn.
nobody will understand...
because, once again, i hate myself.
and everything.. back to square one.