Tuesday, June 30, 2009
Last blogged @ 12:56 PM

just like expected,
i'm sick, having a headache,
seriously, i think it's due to the stupid rain yesterday.

sighs, alone with my beloved dog at home now.
mum's at malaysia, darling's at work.
plus, the two of them doesn't want to care about me anymore.

this is the time, i suddenly realise,
i am indeed alone.
i dont have friends i can turn to,
nor family members who i can tell everything to.
i have only somebody,
even closer to my family,
being here more than my friends do..
my boyfriend.

but sadly, things changed yesterday night.
i didn't want to do anything anymore,
don't wanna act stupid again.
so i tried to stay cool,
like i should have done previously.
i dont wanna act like a small lil girl who just lost her doll.
i thought through that, and i knw, damn it, it's irritating. -,-
from the start, what i should have done is to stay cool,
and think through everything that has happened.

from this day onwards,
what i'm holding on, is an empty shell,
an empty shell with nothing to share.

and for me,
i think i am gg back to go through that
accumulating = volcano thinggy again.
something i hate to face back. fuck shit.