okay, great, another lack of sleep day. -.-

im waking up at 6.30, and it's ard 4plus now. oh wells.

talking about that, after blogging yesterday, went to sleep and ended up, i couldnt wake up, so didnt went to school, and it was like 6plus when i woke up. if this continue, im going to die. but, i dont want to stay at home. memories linger. i would rather die of tiredness than die of being haunted by the memories. because, 我会死的很痛苦... i dont want to think, because everytime i start to, it'll link up to many many things, and then. i'll isolate myself again. sighs.

shaboy and sakai called, so ended up going downstairs to entertain their nonsense. not fair, they are very happy with their love, and i can feel the sweet stench of happiness attached to them! then, where's mine? so, it's like.. NOT FAIR. whatever it is, i had it, just that i lost it.

ahling, meinah and bearbear came over to find us, and slacked at a block with countable residents in it. i wouldnt dare to go up if i was alone. (chicken meat-ed)

great, meinah's going to court tmr, i really dont know what i have to say. sighs. ):

sakai's going to court again too, and hopefully, it's probation luh. if not, shaboy's going to break down. i dont wanna die of flood.

shaked my stress away. eh, no, i didnt. i just wanna torture myself, i dont know why.

went over to nigel's house and waited with him for my wife, joel to come over to get their hair dyed. and after waiting for like dont know how fucking long, joel said he dont want to get his hair dyed when he finally reached. so, in the end.. after dying nigel's hair, turned around and smack that dye on his hair. and he was like. bo bian lor. (: slack slack slack, and now, returned home.

i think nigel and joel's going to kill me soon, cos they're going ' tak boleh tahan ' seeing me emo-ing all the time. wanted to wake up to my senses, begged them to beat me up. what a previllage, but.. was rejected! slapped myself, but.. it does no difference. sighs.

whatever it is, i really wanna thank all my friends, really. these two days, had been recieving touching messages from them, and, really, im happy to see that you guys care. thanks, friends.

NIGEL : " ... Take care ya . Dunn think too much . even if all ppl outside lies to u nvm lah. i won't lie to u. =) "

SAKAI : " Bgerl, take good care of yourself. Don't think too much. It's better for you to move on with your life. No matter what, you will always have me as a friend. "

AHLING : " Thanks, but let me tell you, no matter what conflicts we had in the past i'll always be here for you no matter what. but i just hope you wont have grudges against me. "

and also, many others, whoever that showed me concern. thanks, really (:

oh, and also to AHBOY who has been checking on my meals.. -.- lol. but, no appetite lah. ):

am going to sleep now, im left with two more hours! NIGHTS~

p.s. i miss you,