i've never thought that i'll get myself so upset again. and now that things are in this state for me, i feel so hopeless. i dont know what the future's gonna bring, if only i can skip this period of time i would have to go through being hurt and upset. sighs. everyone's like.. "be happy kay?", "dont be upset lah!", "what's the use of crying so much?".. blah blah blah.
but what would you all do if the same things happened on you? ): giving advice is easy, but to really take the advice... it's really tough. love is selfish, love is blind. and therefore... i got myself into this state. i know its not worth it, but, why did i choose this? sighs.

right now, im afraid that this heartache would change me. change me into someone who's not me. and i've been isolating myself in the room. afraid to vent it on anyone. since there's suffering, just let me go through it alone. though i dont want to either, but i think i should. if taking a step back and surrender would make others happy, why not just do it? even if it's gonna make you suffer and go through all the hurts and pain, why not? afterall, 我一个人拼命挣扎, 总比两个人一起难过还好吧...

many friends are trying their best to cheer me up, appreciated. did cheer me up a little, made me laugh a little, but after the joke's over, the hurts and pains are back again. so.. what's the use? but still, thanks alot (:

when will this heartache, this torturement, this suffering stop?